Story 5. Written by Jim Waitlord

You know the saying: if you are master of yourself, you are master of your world. This is obviously true. Jesus was also master of his world while he was master of himself. After he lost control and overturned the tables of the money changers, he was no longer master of himself, and therefore, not of his world either. One bad decision led to his death.

Let's consider mankind, or just consider me. I am not master of myself. Obviously. Nor am I master of my world. Addiction is a force I cannot overcome. Therefore, I cannot master my world. If I could master myself, would the equation change? Only then could it be revealed, if I could master myself. Many people do it so easily. Starting tomorrow, I won't smoke, I won't drink, and so on. Then tomorrow comes, and they still do. Why is it that one person has an affinity for such things, and others don't? Can this be developed? I find that it doesn't work for me. What would the task be? Not to think about it. To control the thoughts. But it's also possible I'll succeed someday. But when someone resolves to limit themselves—say, only a few hours of gaming, three cigarettes a day, or a single joint in the evening—another personality seems to take hold, one that craves more, and that personality is uncontrollable, continuing to indulge as long as the substance or the funds last.

Vicious cycle. You know you're rushing headlong to your doom if you can't control yourself, and yet you feel helpless. Addiction overrides rational arguments, logic, even the instinct for survival. You couldn't care less if you get sick from it, or if what you're doing is unhealthy. Maybe you feel remorse, but it changes nothing. Obviously, addiction can take many forms. Even the simple act of enjoying shouting and arguing can become an addiction. In order to achieve our goals, be masters of ourselves, and live a happy life, must we free ourselves from addiction? So, was Buddha wrong? Enlightenment: is it not the end of suffering, but rather the end of addiction? However, this incredibly strong bond is almost impossible to break. Since everything is chemistry, this is too. Perhaps the amygdala releases a chemical that induces craving, and this manifests in the form of thoughts. It's worth studying this question because there must be a solution. The other possibility is surrender—that is, surrendering to my addiction. However, this means losing all control, and is tantamount to death.

Why can't they find Attila's tomb?

He was called the Scourge of God. He was imagined as a superior being, a favorite of God. Almost a demigod. But his life, death, and deeds proved otherwise. The legend had already taken root. They didn't want to destroy it. Like all legends, it likely contains only a kernel of truth. Time embellishes everything. They spread the tale and then performed a sham burial. Everyone who knew the truth was killed. Thus, Attila never even had a tomb, but his legend lives on to this day.

The Holy Grail is likely a symbolic representation. Jesus was already famous during his life. It's very likely that objects he touched were collected. They associated power with them. Someone surely preserved the chalice from the Last Supper, too. Perhaps because, in reality, drinking from it wouldn't grant eternal life! The Templars could have acquired it, of course. Of course, it could also be in someone else's possession. Why would they have left it somewhere underground? If they ever had it, they still have it today, locked away in some member's safe.

If the Ark of the Covenant had existed, wouldn't it have prevented the capture of Jerusalem? Since the army that possessed it was supposed to be unbeatable? Or do people—modern people—imagine that it existed, but that the accepted accounts are false? Then how could it be said to exist? If something exists but its properties are different, it's not the same thing at all. So, the Ark of the Covenant as described, in its very essence, is a grand lie and never existed. This is also proof of how some people, in their own interests, falsified the Bible according to their will, led by the Antichrist—the Pope. Those who suffered for their foolishness were beatified and canonized.

Friday, March 28, 2025, 6:55 AM

This will be the fifth story. The fifth story will be moved to 58th place.

What's the solution for addiction? I don't know.

Maybe there's no point in fighting against it. We have as much chance of defeating it as a chess master has of defeating AI.

However, whoever can still do it can reach enlightenment and the end of suffering, as Buddha said.

So resistance isn't the solution, since violence breeds violence, tension breeds tension.

Perhaps substitution, substance exchange.

There are good and bad addictions, some are unhealthy, some are useful.

Homo sapiens perhaps should accept that they are addicted, and there's nothing that can be done about it.

Every modern rehab program is hopeless.

People with these genes cannot be cured.

Perhaps the few in whom this gene isn't so strong are the masters of the future, if they were allowed to reproduce.

Today, most people are addicted to the knowledge of their own cleverness and to money and to power.

They don't even treat this, moreover, they think they are so smart that it isn't even a disease.

Yet it's the same as alcoholism and drug addiction.

Even worse, because this goes at the expense of other individuals, they don't only harm themselves with it.

But it's also possible that some substance exchange or addiction change could provide a solution.

In any case, all the psychiatric wards should be full of the people previously mentioned, in my opinion.

If I could go forward in the future and return, I could say that a solution to this disease has already been found and the world isn't led by lunatics anymore in the future.

But this too is a paradox.

Because if these lunatics aren't stopped already here in the past then there won't even be a future because they aren't interested in anything besides fulfilling their craving.

So, they will simply drive the planet to its ruin without further ado.

Resistance is meaningless.

Homo sapiens isn't at all smart.

Money is just junk, if there's more of it than is needed, and power is when a narcissistic sociopath rules over his environment damning everyone to unhappiness.

Saturday, March 29, 2025, 3:06 PM

When I got into the hospital, on the 3rd floor in the white sector then the patients went into all kinds of groups.

There was a music group.

They asked on the first day what instrument we would like to be.

Everyone said something and why.

When they asked me I replied the hole in the flute.

They didn't really say anything about it but when we went back to the ward then they announced that they had removed me from the music group first among all of the patients of the entire psychiatric ward who had been there until now or who were currently lying there.

Because I have a bad effect on the other patients.

So I'm the perpetual record holder in this.

Sunday, March 30, 2025, 8:01 AM

I don't know what you're turning in your small head,

but I wouldn't hit more in your place!

8:02

The End

Jesus's Chalice in Attila's Tomb