Story 65. Written by Rosa J. Vargas

May 7, 2025, 2:56 PM

Think about it! The Hungarian government, I mean Orban, is saying that they are dedicated to peace, while Europe is pro-war. So, they're convincing their voters, especially the women, that if they weren't in power, these poor women's sons would have to go to war. Obviously, that's not true, or if they did have to go, they'd have to go no matter what they did, because they signed a treaty saying they're part of NATO. But the Hungarian women swallow this hook, line, and sinker, and they go in droves to vote for the leader who's supposedly saving their sons from being lost. I can't stop laughing. And Europe is pro-war? Isn't it more like they're fighting against a reactionary, aggressive power by supporting Ukraine? If they didn't support Ukraine, it would have been overrun a long time ago, and everyone who resisted would have been slaughtered. And then what would be the next target? Anyway, with this one lie, they can stay in power forever. Even the Pope supports this great desire for peace. Otherwise, the government supports Putin in everything. The richest people in the country are a pair of Russian oligarch brothers. So, isn't the Hungarian government directly or indirectly financing the war in Ukraine? Isn't every decision made serving Putin's interests? What is treason if it's not this? In any case, here, whatever the great leader says, everyone, or at least most people, believes it. They don't look around and see what's going on next door. The neighboring countries are barely visible anymore, they've left us so far behind in terms of development. Here, in Europe's cesspool, they can do anything to the people. They barely give them pensions, but then they come up with giving them a 13th-month bonus. Then the pensioners are overjoyed, thinking how kind the great leader is, taking care of us. They don't even realize that if they got a decent pension, it would be much more than what they get now with the 13th-month bonus included. Here, everything is about dumbing down the people. Staying in power at all costs. Of course, I understand them; if I were a criminal, I wouldn't want to get caught and have to give back the stolen money. That's what would happen to them if they weren't in power. So, they can't lose an election. This is the Hungarian mafia state. Siphoning off everything to the extreme, taking every bit of money they can, just making sure things function roughly. This country is a country of over a million alcoholics. They even made sure to support every village pub with three million forints. Isn't alcohol a drug? Aren't the medications they prescribe to patients drugs? They're more of a drug than marijuana, which they fight against, of course, criminalizing it and handing out overly harsh punishments to users. Obviously, everything can be explained away. Are there absolute truths? Or is there no truth? I'm starting to doubt, but I think there are.

Today we went to the post office to pay bills. The lottery jackpot is over a billion. B asks, "Shouldn't we buy a lottery ticket?" I say, "Why bother? You can't win on that." Think about it: the Szerencsejáték RT. (Gambling Corporation), which is also an addiction, or a drug, by the way, is in the hands of the state. If they steal everything in the world, why wouldn't they steal the lottery jackpot? Are they honest about that? Every number played is in the system. When it wasn't like this, before the computer age, there were almost full matches every week, or at least on average every month. But today, many more tickets are bought. Back then, everyone at home only knew what numbers they were playing themselves. How simple is it to choose the number combination that hasn't been played? And then, making that the winning combination is even easier. A magician on stage can do it for a few cents. So, someone with billions in their hands couldn't do it? They draw the numbers by hand in front of you. Seemingly there can be no cheating. In reality, how simple is the whole scheme? If we gave this as a problem on an advanced math exam, I don't think it would be the hardest problem to prove that the likelihood of this scheme existing is, say, one in ten to the sixty-fifth power, meaning there are fewer atoms in the observable universe. So, every week the money that can be won increases. For months, even for a year, there is no full match. People's imaginations run wild. How much money! Maybe a billion forints is the limit. More and more lotteries are bought. The big money keeps them excited. Maybe now, maybe now. Revenue increases, they watch to see where it peaks before it starts to fall, then they draw the full match. No one ever knows who won, no one has ever met someone who really won. Obviously, because there isn't anyone. They give it to someone who is one of them, or they give the number sequence in advance and tell them to play it. Obviously, this is state-induced gambling addiction. It encompasses every part of gambling. There are so many scratch cards now, like stars in the sky. On these, you can only win if it snows red or if Jack and Jill do. And the people in this country are so stupid that they don't even see through this sieve. This is what they call the goose that lays golden eggs here. Which is nothing more than people's stupidity. You can only force this shit down the throats of stupid people, only stupid people fall for the lying propaganda. Is this reprehensible, by the way? Not necessarily, why shouldn't they rob a country? They think others would do it, so why shouldn't we? Stupid people die!

Here, at the beginning of the end of the world, in this country, people are preoccupied with tricking others, stealing money from their pockets, and piling it up.

What would I say to God if I met him face to face?

May 8, 2025, Thursday, 6:53 AM

The same thing as to Viktor Orbán: Lord, you have betrayed your country!

6:55 AM

I want to live honestly

To walk all my paths

Honestly, freely, beautifully

More honestly than I have lived so far

Honestly, freely, beautifully

More honestly than I lived yesterday

Not to have to lie to anyone

And if I ask something

The answer should be true

Jesus says: I am the truth: What about imagination? What you can imagine is possible and can exist. Maybe it already exists. This is the absolute truth. But can you imagine a new color? No. Still, it exists. Can you imagine infinity? You can't. So, for you, it doesn't exist. So, what does our philosophy say, that we create the world by imagining it. But the world existed before us too. So, someone already had to imagine it. Is this proof of God's existence? He has more developed senses because he can imagine more things than we can. We only see a fraction of the light spectrum; he sees the whole thing. That's how he can imagine it. What color is a leaf? It can be any color except green because that's what it reflects, and it absorbs the rest. But even he can't imagine infinity because it doesn't exist. If he could imagine it, it would exist, and we would know about it, just like we know about light. I imagine infinity as being in a room where there is a mirror between the two walls. The universe is in the room. When it reaches the mirror, I step into the mirror and continue. But from this, it follows that infinity is a function of space. So, infinity doesn't exist because space is finite. So, what I imagine is just a mirage of infinity because I can't imagine it in reality, I mean I can't imagine it because it doesn't exist. Everything ends where space ends. There may be other universes and other spaces. I can imagine that now. There is nothing between them, no space. But if they were at a distance from each other, that would assume that there is space between them. So, they can't exist. So, only this one universe exists at this level. If the Big Bang came from a black hole that broke through the space it was in, then there are levels. Every level, dimension, has a Big Bang and a universe. But there are many black holes. Then there must be more than one universe at each level. Maybe it also matters how much mass breaks through the space. So, even black holes from the same reality create universes at different levels. If they were exactly the same in terms of mass, they would destroy each other. But there is no chance of that. How could two black holes have the same mass to the atom? But this is a process. There had to be a beginning. What is the beginning to me is the end to you. So, it follows that when the process reaches a certain level, it reverses into itself. The initial first universe is recreated. Like fertilization. The question arises, which came first, the chicken or the egg? Was the small universe, the last one that created the big universe, first, or was the big one first? Again, this is meaningless because it can only be simultaneous. In reality, everything happens simultaneously at the same time. Time is just a concept. It is perceptible at certain levels, but in reality, it does not exist. It is a function of speed. So, this is infinity. Which is obviously finite because it is bounded. A self-returning process. Every universe is destroyed, torn apart by gravity, and then space ceases to exist. Like everything is destroyed. But when the last one remains, it collapses back into itself. Completely like conception and birth. This is the solution to the theory of everything. The explanation of the relationship between the very small and the very large. Theoretically, information cannot be lost. The information stored in the black hole returns after a while, because the black hole evaporates. This is not true, because when the black hole breaks through space, the information is transferred to the next universe.

The mule was released by the pulsar, got a spaceship, and will be here in 24 years.

May 8, 2025, Thursday

2:53 PM

We were soldiers. Karcsi Balla was in the same dorm with me. He was a good kid, tall, thin, Gypsy kid. Good-natured, he was my buddy, or rather, I was his. He told me a lot. Back then, our job, since we were in a labor company, was to insulate the roof of a hundred-thousand-square-meter hall with slag wool. Every morning they took us out there, we worked there, and in the evening they brought us back. Our skin itched so much afterward that we had to take a shower. Which wasn't easy because there was only ice-cold water in the barracks. But if you stand under the cold water for a long time, you get used to it, and you could wash off the dirt, the small flying pieces of slag wool that stuck to your skin all day. One time we were on the roof. There was a big piece of peasant kid among us. He was trash like most who were assigned there. He wasn't feeling so good about being practically locked up here too, he was constantly picking on everyone. No one really dared to resist him because he was very strong and just for fun, or with made-up excuses, he physically abused anyone. We were just eating when the guy found Karcsi Balla. They were only wrestling verbally, the kid was picking on him. I don't remember the exact dialogue. Of course, Karcsi didn't let him get away with it, he talked back to the kid. Finally, they got to the point where the peasant kid said, "Your fucking mother, come back here! Let's play it out!" There was a part of the roof there that was closed off from our area, but you could go through a door, but you couldn't see it from here. To our great surprise, Karcsi says, "Let's play it out!" The peasant kid had about thirty pounds of advantage. They went back. The rest of us just sat there and didn't know what would happen. No sound was heard. Then a thud. Then after a little while another one, then another one. Then they came back. Karcsi had his usual good mood, and the peasant kid was blue and green bruised.

Karcsi Balla once told me that his mother, who was a Gypsy woman, was going to the market. I don't remember exactly, but someone came along, a man, and said something to the woman. The woman took off her high heel, didn't say anything back, she just grabbed the shoe by the nose and hit the man in the head with it. The ambulance took him away.

When I was in the hospital, there was a Gypsy woman. She was there because she was obviously mentally ill, and according to her, her husband abused her a lot. There were women in the ward who couldn't take the beating anymore, the domestic violence, and their only refuge was to check in. She was always complaining to me a lot about how her husband abused her. I say to her, "Listen! I know a solution. When he comes home, take out some walnuts, and a high-heeled shoe, and start cracking the walnuts with the heel of that shoe on the kitchen table in front of his eyes!" She replied: "Then he would kill me."

The death of the individual ensures that the species lives on, that eventually the perfect, immortal is created. Obviously, this often doesn't happen because the species dies out sooner. Every individual, specimen of a species, is initially female. At the time of their formation, in the womb or in the egg, wherever, they are initially female. This is obvious, isn't it? The female sex is superior. They ensure the survival of the species, they choose from the appropriate males so that the most viable offspring are created. And then they take care of the offspring. Everything depends on them. The survival of the species. In humans, too, the embryo is female. Later it is modified, it starts to develop in two directions. Obviously, there may be other ways. But this is just evolution preparing for all environmental changes. It can also be seen in some species, in fact, in many, that the female individual dominates. An example of this is hyenas. In the distant past, homo sapiens also lived in a matriarchal society. So, the woman is superior to the man. She chooses, she actually reproduces. They certainly carry on their genes. How degenerate is a world where the woman doesn't dominate! Think about it! The man is an inferior animal compared to the woman. Throughout his life, every deed, every thought, every action serves only one purpose. To conquer the woman and pass on her genes. And the woman judges. This is evolution. It can be observed in the whole animal kingdom. Except, of course, for humanity. Where the male individual has taken over the rule over the female and suppresses it. He tells the woman who to mate with, they don't leave it to the woman's instincts. It can also be seen in humanity. Pure inbreeding, the man who dominates as a result of his actions, which would only be aimed at acquiring the woman, but since there is no female control, he creates constant struggle, senseless slaughter, unlimited acquisition of material goods so that an individual dominates. They decide about women without asking women, they have no free right to choose, no free will. Simply because they are physically stronger, the males managed to take power and are slowly, because they are crazy and not as smart and forward-looking as women, pushing their species to the brink of extinction. So, the male sex is fundamentally extremely inferior to the female. Everything they can achieve, although they seem smarter, is only available to them so that there is competition between them and based on this the female individuals can decide. But the males are unsuitable for leadership, direction, distant vision, foresight, everything that women are capable of. Because women can think ahead, but the male is only in the illusion of momentary mating. Women love their children and if they had to choose who would stay alive, the child or who made it, they would always choose the child. But the man would always choose the woman. We live in a distorted world where roles have been reversed and thus sentenced to death. In other words, this is why humanity is doomed to extinction. The leading role is not in the hands of those who could ensure the survival of the species but in those who have no idea about anything, they only see the momentary gene transfer, that floats before their eyes. To wipe out, kill the competition, rule by any means, nothing matters, nothing has a price. This is manifested at the national level as well. At the racial level as well. The male is a ruling species to whom nothing matters, only that his, not necessarily suitable, genes go on, he does everything for it, he can't even sense that his faulty genes may go on, but in the long run this leads to extinction. In the case of female rule, which should be the most obvious, this could not happen. Women not only have an IQ, which may be lower than that of the male individuals, but their emotional intelligence is much greater. If they were in charge, there probably wouldn't be this madness on this planet that there is now. There would be no wars, bloodshed, senseless competition, and so on. The man, to ensure his superior role in this crazy world that is here on this planet, even calls on religion to support his madness, his mania for control. He does everything to suppress women. Look at the Bible! God created man in his own image. This is such a lie that anyone who thinks about it logically immediately understands. Moreover, in his own image. Every individual is initially female. How could the inferior male, only necessary for reproduction and gene combination, which is secondary, create man in his image? Isn't it obvious that God is female? So, this is a falsification of the Bible. In reality, God created man in his own image, who is a woman, and from her rib created man to serve her and ensure variations and survival under all circumstances. How else could it have been? If they lied about this, what else did they lie about? Since the foundations of the whole religion were written by men, well, obviously everything, or almost everything. Would a woman have written such things? Obviously not. The women are superior, they would not have strived for autocracy and the oppression of the other sex. But they had no chance because the inferior species, purely with its physical strength, suppressed them. Everything that is written in the religions is aimed at subjugating the woman. We live in such a distorted world. Suppose, which is also true, that God is a woman and initially loved her children very much. This is no longer true today. A degenerate species, the man, has risen above her. God lets this happen. She no longer cares about her creatures today. So, what is God? God is actually a female cat who initially would give her life for her kittens but later doesn't even recognize them. So, she doesn't care that this inferior species rules over her and leads her to her doom.

Thousands upon thousands of years taught father and son

to endure heroic death if necessary

Thousands upon thousands of years taught mother and daughter

to wear black mourning clothes in their hearts.

The Goose That Laid the Golden Egg